I am a Christian

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I am saved"
I'm whispering "I was lost"
That is why I chose this way.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need someone to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And pray for strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are all too visible,
But God believes I'm worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches
Which is why I speak His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I'm loved.

Trying times

I am going thru such a hard time right now.... financially, mentally, spiritually, my kids, family, and marriage. I am being pulled in so many directions that I have lost my way and has been sucked down in self pity. I am praying so hard for guidance and understanding, and clarity to process my situation. I have truly realize that when you hit bottom and your going thru your trials and trying times, you feel abandon and the people you thought was your true friends are a good listener can really care less about your issues. So with all the other issues you’re dealing with or that I have allowed to consumed my life now I have the feeling of abandonment placed in my heart.

Dear God,

I am so sorry I know that my feelings, thoughts & emotions and actions are getting the best of me and I know that you will never put more on me than I can bare and that I need to continue to praise and worship thru the good and bad. God I pray to you to remove ALL things that are not of YOU in my life. I ask that you please forgive me from my sins by words, thoughts, and deed. God I thank you for bringing me this far and I praise in advance to guiding me and bring me out of this storm and into a brand new season that has been provided and set up by your Grace and Mercy.
I pray for courage as I begin this day, for I understand there is work to be done, burdens to be carried, feelings to be shared and joys to be celebrated. Grant me the courage to be silent that I may hear Thy voice; to persevere, that I may share Thy victory. God Please continue to work on me and thur me, that I may by changed and become a reflection in your image.
In these Holy words I pray
Amen.