Bare with me please, I'm dealing with so much at one time I can't seem to handle it all, but I know I am losing, I've lost my focus, my hope, and my way.... I'm trying to cover it up thinking it will all just pass and things will go back to the way they were, unfortunately that's not true and it's not that simple. I'm not doing the right things for myself and for my family I'm numbing myself with things that is no good, I'm trying to cover up my pain but instead I'm causing more damage & hurt... I don't know where to start or how to begin, I'm praying but I'm still at a lost, I'm try to be positive but negativity keeps dragging me down, I take two steps forward and get knocked back ten. I open my heart to others and I get stabbed or betrayed. I stand in silence they say I'm acting funny, I speak my mind I'm doing too much. We all fall off sometimes that's life, life will take through courses you never even signed up for. Unfortunately you can't study for the test you'll have to rely on faith and prayer. Every day I tell myself Lord let your will be done and whatever it is please give me the condition to deal with it.....
It is what it is, and I am what I am. I don't try and pretend to be nothing I'm not and you can't assume me to be no more than what I am..I can spot BS a mile away so pls don't bring it, my actions can be sweet, but my words can be lethal..I love to Love and I hate to lose, but losing never harden me it just made me push harder. We all have dreams. But in order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lot of determination, dedication, self-discipline, and effort
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Deep Inside
I am a poet writing of my pain.
I am a person living a life of shame.
I am your daughter hiding my depression.
I am your sister making a good impression.
I am your friend acting like Im fine.
I am a wisher wishing this life werent mine.
I am a girl who thinks of suicide.
I am a teenager pushing her tears aside.
I am a student who doesnt have a clue.
I am the girl sittin next to you.
I am the one asking you to care.
I am your best friend hoping youll be there.
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Sunday, June 7, 2015
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