A change is going to come

Never think that God's delays are God's denials, know that you are where you are suppose to be at this very moment. Make the best of it by putting your positive thoughts into play and know that your situation is only temporary and God’s sees your trouble so Hold on; hold fast; hold out because God got you covered.

Day 6: A song that makes you cry

Brenda got a baby by 2pac... this song is so sad to me everytime I hear or watch the video because I know someone out there had to live this or know someone that went thur something similiar and I get teary eyed everytime....

Also He saw the best in me by Marvin Sapp.... I get teary eyed when I ear this one,

Day 5: A photo of something you really hate

Something I really Hate......ummmmm that is a tough one because I dislike A LOT of things, but hate is a very harsh word and I try really hard to hate anything... but if I have to hate anything it would be BROKE.... I hate being Broke.... Now I don't mind being not having after I have paid all the bills and is gas up bc now I can survie another 30 days, but being broke and not know when my next dollar is coming from is a painful feeling......and I would HATE that....

Day 4: About your family

Something about my family......  I am married to my husband of 5 years.... I have 4 crazy kids 2 boys and 2 girls...I don't know how I was bless with that combation but I'm glad I am. I am a daddies girl, always have and always will be :), I have 1 brother and 1 sister I am the youngest, my brother pass about 3 years ago and I am still having a hard time getting over it, Me a sister is not really close, but we do communicate. I talk to my mom just about everyday, I am very proud of her she has overcome soo much....

My family, Hubby & kiddies

 Me and my Mom

                                               

Me and my big sis

 

Me and my dad.... I am a daddies girl

 

Me& my sis & my big brother, may he R.I.P



My niece and nephew



Day 3: About your friends

About my friends..... I don't have very many that I can truly call my friends, now a days soo many people lack the concept of the meaning of friendship, but the very few that I have are great  they are great at keeping me sain and having my back when I need them the most.My little sis Christa is the best I can always count on her when I need. We have had our ups and downs, but we have a past that can not be broken. she is there when I need her when it matter most, even though there was times when I really wish she was around, but the bond we have is priceless that I will go over and beyond for........ So I cherish the ones that have and those that don't mind don't matter and those that matter the most I keep in mind.....

My God sister

Day 2: The meaning behind your name.

According to the Babynology, my name Jenita means White Wave, One who is fair and beautiful and  God is Gracious

Numerological Meaning (For Entertainment Purposes Only)
People with this name tend to be very active. They love to travel and hate to sit around in the same spot for too long. They are bold, daring, and persuasive. They love to try new things and take chances. Professionally, they can be successful as a public figure, in the media, or at developing new ideas for small businesses.

Day 1: 5 interesting facts about yourself.

Day 1 of my 30 Day Challenge...... I'am a work in progress.....
1. I am married and a mother to 4 crazy kids, 2 boys and 2 girls
2. I love to read
3. I am a day dreamer, I can sit all day and just day dream if I could
4. I am always thinking of ways to improve myself, I just want to be better, no not the best just better than what I use to be and is today.... I know I am a work in progress and hopefully I will get there, because I believe I can be so much better than what I am...
5. I get discourage easily

30 Day Challenge!

Day 1: 5 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 2: The meaning behind your name.
Day 3: About your friends.
Day 4: About your family.
Day 5: A photo of something you really hate.
Day 6: A song that makes you cry.
Day 7: Your crush.
Day 8: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 9: Your definition of love.
Day 10: Your best friend.
Day 11: A letter to one of your exes.
Day 12: Your favorite female group.
Day 13: Your least favorite female group.
Day 14: Something you love about yourself.
Day 15: What you would if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant.
Day 16: A photo that makes you smile.
Day 17: A photo that makes you want to cry.
Day 18: A letter to someone you miss.
Day 19: A habit you wish you didn’t have.
Day 20: A letter to your parents.
Day 21: Short goals you wish to fulfill by the end of the month.
Day 22: Your nicknames & why you have them.
Day 23: What you would find in your bag.
Day 24: A song that makes you smile.
Day 25: How you found out about blogger & why you made one.
Day 26: First 10 songs to play on shuffle on your iPod.
Day 27: Your fashion style.
Day 28: What attracts you to someone.
Day 29: Future plans/goals.
Day 30: Who are you?

By the time I get to no.30 I wonder if I shall be able to define the question. Maybe that’s the point. Yea, I think that’s the point!
So lets get on with it!

Holding Me Back

I always heard that if you want your situation to change in your life then you will have to change your situation. I never fully understood how can a person change their situation, I always thought it was just something that each of had to go through to understand where we came from..... but that just can't be what it's all about...When things are going bad and your at a all time low you can't just stay there and wait for something to change are get better.... I have been at a ALL time low in my life and I know that eventually things will get better and a change is coming to come, but I want more than that..... I want things to be great in my life in my kids life, for my family...I really want to succeed at my dream and be happy in myself... Lately I have been feeling less worthy of me, unhappy, mad, fustrated and dissappoint in me..... Yes I know that I am in control of my own destiny and if I want things to turn around in my life I will have to do something to change..... Well that is just it.... I don't where to begin or how to start or what to do and how to do it.... At 33, with 4 kids, married for 5 years I thought I would have somewhat figured somethings out atleast about myself...or about the women I have become or was.... I feel as if I only adapted to what is expected to be and do instead of doing what I felt was right for me.... I allow myself to submissive into that very same person I told myself as a little girl I would never become...... Feeling weak, not only I am weak to others but being weak to myelf as well....I have been placed on HOLD and I am Holding Me Back from all the things that I wanted to accomplished, my dreams, my goals, my kids, my family....... I have so many things inside of me that I have never adventured or let out because of fear what others might say or think.... I do not want to geel trapped and tied down because it just seems like the best thing to do.... I want to explore and enjoy what I do and appericate the fact that I did it...... I want to be HAPPY WITH ME, ABOUT ME. right now when I look at myself I don't see happiess, I see fear and loneliness and heartache...... where do I begin to change that, I guess I need to start with how I see me.....

until then I will learn to smile like I have no worries and laugh just because....
Chapter 1:Releasing the Hold on Me.....