Waiting patiently for my change to come.....This year is almost over and I must say this has not been one of my greatest... I have experience so many trials & errors, ups and downs that left me with some crazy emotions with a hint of self doubt. I've experience some tough times, heartache & hardship .....I feel like I have fell into an unbalance oracle where I am fighting against myself, true love, my future and my marriage..... with all of this going on in my heart and in my mind I still have to take care of my household, raise my kids, be gainfully employed at a place where I feel like my life is fading as I type this.....a supportive wife, friend, sister & daughter..... There are days where I am soo exhausted and tired not from a hard day of work or play, but just mentally tired from over stressing about the How's, When's. Where's, & What's of my day to day life. There are moments when I truly feel like I cannot take another step or move forward because of the agony that has taken over my mind, heart & body. I am at a place of NOWHERE, I ran from a place where I thought didn't need me to a place that I thought at the time was best for me and now I am lost in a place where I can't find ME......This is where I am at, but this is not the place I want to be so as I express all my worries and deep emotions I Still and most importantly must remain faithful to God....I must wait patiently for my change to come..... I can not give up on his word......
God I pray that you heal my mind, body and soul and give me the strength I need to continue on. I ask that you please order my footsteps down the path you have ordered for me, for without you I am nothing and with you I am everything. God I ask that you speak order into my life so that I may have some directions. I pray for peace, understanding and forgiveness. In these words I pray
Amen
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.
Proverbs 3, 5-6
