Day 15: What you would do if you were pregnant

Well Hmmmm...... this is a strange question but here I go.... I have been pregnant 4x..... yes I have 4 kids and I did the only thing I could do and that was handle my business and work on becoming the best Mom I can ever be. My oldest is 15 and my youngest is 4 and motherhood is the hardest job ever because it is a nonstop commitment 24/7. Personally I did not enjoy being pregnant.....OMG it was an  horrible experience and yet I had to do it 4 times.....(don't judge me) but dealing with the mood swings and uncontrollable emotions and weight gain, back pain and hot flashes and the nonstop kicking felt like my ribs was about the break in two and need I talk about the constant going to the bathroom just for a few squirts, UGH!!!! horrible, but in all after all of the pushing, screaming and breathing (which really didn't help much) and praying for drugs that you wish you should have ask for at first but you didn't because you didn't want to harm the baby....but once they place that small little person in your arms your heart stops because you can't believe that you created another person that you can't stop kissing and hugging.  ALL of the struggle, pain,crying  and cussing( because you wish your husband understood what you was going thru and could experience all ot this too).... was worth it because I have something worth going thru all that pain for.
But I REFUSE to do it again..... I am done I love my kids but a 5th time I cannot Do.....

I Cannot Do This Alone

O God, early in the morning I cry to you.
Help me to pray
And to concentrate my thoughts on you:
I cannot do this alone.
In me there is darkness,
But with you there is light;
I am lonely, but you do not leave me;
I am feeble in heart, but with you there is help;
I am restless, but with you there is peace.
In me there is bitterness, but with you there is patience;
I do not understand your ways,
But you know the way for me…
Restore me to liberty,
And enable me to live now
That I may answer before you and before me.
May I praise your Name...To God be the Glory..
Amen
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