I miss my brother, he was killed in 07 but we didn't find out til last year,..... this is a very devastating feeling.
Dear Dwight,
Dwight you are my brother, my mom and dad only son, you should have saw the pain on their face when they heard the news it was devastating, I could barely catch my breath I was in shock! Words cannot describe the pain we feel right now. I know that this was not the pain and hurt you meant to cause us. I know that if you could you would walk through the doorway one more time and tell us how much you care and say goodbye and how sorry you are and that you tried to get better and do right. I know you been trying to reach out to us and tell us about your passing, I just hate it took this long, I hate that you made us wait. We waited three years to hear from you, see you , to talk to you, three years passed not knowing where you where, praying for a sign that you was ok and you was doing fine…WHY, WHY???, WHY didn‘t you answer me, you heard your little sister calling you, crying and reaching for you and you didn’t say anything….Maybe it wasn’t time for us to know, because you knew how much it would hurt us. You was waiting for the right time to come to us. I hate that I didn’t suspect anything sooner, because it was not like you to not call or saying anything. I have so many questions of WHYS? But I know that questioning God about the unknown will not provide any answers right now. I know that God don’t make any mistakes and that he was calling his child home. It was unfortunate of how your death occurred, no matter what, your my brother and you have done many things in the past and you did some wrong, but you didn’t deserve a death like that. You didn’t deserve that kind of pain and torture. God I know you shouldn’t harvest hate in your heart, but I HATE the guys who took you from us. . I know that in time the pain and hurt will begin to fade and it will get easier and one day everything will all fall back into place. It might not be today, tomorrow or next week or next even next year. With Faith in God I know in due time all things heal and we must keep moving forward. I can still hear you telling me, “Shante always be yourself, never change for nobody, never be afraid, to be me because at the end of day your only living for yourself, family and GOD and only God can judge you.“ we always had those kinds of talk, you was always upfront with me, and never sugar coated anything, when I needed you, you was there for me, Thank you for that.
Dwight please watch over mom and dad and protect them from the heartache. Tell Mamma Jessie, Aunt Wanda, Kamera, and Grandma Kennard that we love them all and missed them so much. I know that they are happy to see you, to see you safe at last and pain free. Now your soul can rest and be at peace. Your gone but you will never be forgotten…..I will always love you
Love always
Your baby Sis
